A.P. Chekhov - Nerves
DMITRI OSIPOVITCH VAXIN, the architect, returned from town to
his holiday cottage greatly impressed by the spiritualistic
sance at which he had been present. As he undressed and got
into his solitary bed (Madame Vaxin had gone to an all-night
service) he could not help remembering all he had seen and
heard. It had not, properly speaking, been a sance at all, but
the whole evening had been spent in terrifying conversation. A
young lady had begun it by talking, apropos of nothing, about
thought-reading. From thought-reading they had passed
imperceptibly to spirits, and from spirits to ghosts, from
ghosts to people buried alive. . . . A gentleman had read a
horrible story of a corpse turning round in the coffin. Vaxin
himself had asked for a saucer and shown the young ladies how to
converse with spirits. He had called up among others the spirit
of his deceased uncle, Klavdy Mironitch, and had mentally asked
"Has not the time come for me to transfer the ownership of our
house to my wife?"
To which his uncle's spirit had replied:
"All things are good in their season."
"There is a great deal in nature that is mysterious and . . .
terrible . . ." thought Vaxin, as he got into bed. "It's not the
dead but the unknown that's so horrible."
It struck one o'clock. Vaxin turned over on the other side and
peeped out from beneath the bedclothes at the blue light of the
lamp burning before the holy ikon. The flame flickered and cast
a faint light on the ikon-stand and the big portrait of Uncle
Klavdy that hung facing his bed.
"And what if the ghost of Uncle Klavdy should appear this
minute?" flashed through Vaxin's mind. "But, of course, that's
Ghosts are, we all know, a superstition, the offspring of
undeveloped intelligence, but Vaxin, nevertheless, pulled the
bed-clothes over his head, and shut his eyes very tight. The
corpse that turned round in its coffin came back to his mind,
and the figures of his deceased mother-in-law, of a colleague
who had hanged himself, and of a girl who had drowned herself,
rose before his imagination. . . . Vaxin began trying to dispel
these gloomy ideas, but the more he tried to drive them away the
more haunting the figures and fearful fancies became. He began
to feel frightened.
"Hang it all!" he thought. "Here I am afraid in the dark like a
Tick . . . tick . . . tick . . . he heard the clock in the next
room. The church-bell chimed the hour in the churchyard close
by. The bell tolled slowly, depressingly, mournfully. . . . A
cold chill ran down Vaxin's neck and spine. He fancied he heard
someone breathing heavily over his head, as though Uncle Klavdy
had stepped out of his frame and was bending over his nephew. .
. . Vaxin felt unbearably frightened. He clenched his teeth and
held his breath in terror.
At last, when a cockchafer flew in at the open window and began
buzzing over his bed, he could bear it no longer and gave a
violent tug at the bellrope.
"Dmitri Osipitch, was wollen Sie?" he heard the voice of the
German governess at his door a moment later.
"Ah, it's you, Rosalia Karlovna!" Vaxin cried, delighted. "Why
do you trouble? Gavrila might just . . ."
"Yourself Gavrila to the town sent. And Glafira is somewhere all
the evening gone. . . . There's nobody in the house. . . . Was
wollen Sie doch?"
"Well, what I wanted . . . it's . . . but, please, come in . . .
you needn't mind! . . . it's dark."
Rosalia Karlovna, a stout red-cheeked person, came in to the
bedroom and stood in an expectant attitude at the door.
"Sit down, please . . . you see, it's like this. . . . What on
earth am I to ask her for?" he wondered, stealing a glance at
Uncle Klavdy's portrait and feeling his soul gradually returning
"What I really wanted to ask you was . . . Oh, when the man goes
to town, don't forget to tell him to . . . er . . . er . . . to
get some cigarette-papers. . . . But do, please sit down."
"Cigarette-papers? good. . . . Was wollen Sie noch?"
"Ich will . . . there's nothing I will, but. . . But do sit
down! I shall think of something else in a minute."
"It is shocking for a maiden in a man's room to remain. . . .
Mr. Vaxin, you are, I see, a naughty man. . . . I understand. .
. . To order cigarette-papers one does not a person wake. . . .
I understand you. . . ."
Rosalia Karlovna turned and went out of the room.
Somewhat reassured by his conversation with her and ashamed of
his cowardice, Vaxin pulled the bedclothes over his head and
shut his eyes. For about ten minutes he felt fairly comfortable,
then the same nonsense came creeping back into his mind. . . .
He swore to himself, felt for the matches, and without opening
his eyes lighted a candle.
But even the light was no use. To Vaxin' s excited imagination
it seemed as though someone were peeping round the corner and
that his uncle's eyes were moving.
"I'll ring her up again . . . damn the woman!" he decided. "I'll
tell her I'm unwell and ask for some drops."
Vaxin rang. There was no response. He rang again, and as though
answering his ring, he heard the church-bell toll the hour.
Overcome with terror, cold all over, he jumped out of bed, ran
headlong out of his bedroom, and making the sign of the cross
and cursing himself for his cowardice, he fled barefoot in his
night-shirt to the governess's room.
"Rosalia Karlovna!" he began in a shaking voice as he knocked at
her door, "Rosalia Karlovna! . . . Are you asleep? . . . I feel
. . . so . . . er . . . er . . . unwell. . . . Drops! . . ."
There was no answer. Silence reigned.
"I beg you . . . do you understand? I beg you! Why this
squeamishness, I can't understand . . . especially when a man .
. . is ill . . . How absurdly zierlich manierlich you are really
. . . at your age. . . ."
"I to your wife shall tell. . . . Will not leave an honest
maiden in peace. . . . When I was at Baron Anzig's, and the
baron try to come to me for matches, I understand at once what
his matches mean and tell to the baroness. . . . I am an honest
"Hang your honesty! I am ill I tell you . . . and asking you for
drops. Do you understand? I'm ill!"
"Your wife is an honest, good woman, and you ought her to love!
Ja! She is noble! . . . I will not be her foe!"
"You are a fool! simply a fool! Do you understand, a fool?"
Vaxin leaned against the door-post, folded his arms and waited
for his panic to pass off. To return to his room where the lamp
flickered and his uncle stared at him from his frame was more
than he could face, and to stand at the governess's door in
nothing but his night-shirt was inconvenient from every point of
view. What could he do?
It struck two o'clock and his terror had not left him. There was
no light in the passage and something dark seemed to be peeping
out from every corner. Vaxin turned so as to face the door-post,
but at that instant it seemed as though somebody tweaked his
night-shirt from behind and touched him on the shoulder.
"Damnation! . . . Rosalia Karlovna!"
No answer. Vaxin hesitatingly opened the door and peeped into
the room. The virtuous German was sweetly slumbering. The tiny
flame of a night-light threw her solid buxom person into relief.
Vaxin stepped into the room and sat down on a wickerwork trunk
near the door. He felt better in the presence of a living
creature, even though that creature was asleep.
"Let the German idiot sleep," he thought, "I'll sit here, and
when it gets light I'll go back. . . . It's daylight early now."
Vaxin curled up on the trunk and put his arm under his head to
await the coming of dawn.
"What a thing it is to have nerves!" he reflected. "An educated,
intelligent man! . . . Hang it all! . . . It's a perfect
As he listened to the gentle, even breathing of Rosalia Karlovna,
he soon recovered himself completely.
At six o'clock, Vaxin's wife returned from the all-night
service, and not finding her husband in their bedroom, went to
the governess to ask her for some change for the cabman.
On entering the German's room, a strange sight met her eyes.
On the bed lay stretched Rosalia Karlovna fast asleep, and a
couple of yards from her was her husband curled up on the trunk
sleeping the sleep of the just and snoring loudly.
What she said to her husband, and how he looked when he woke, I
leave to others to describe. It is beyond my powers.
was wollen Sie?: what do you want? (German)
Was wollen Sie doch?: what do you really want?
Was wollen Sie noch?: what do you still want?
Ich will . . .: I want . . .
zierlich manierlich: dainty mannerly